http://www.aholyexperience.com/2012/04/weekends-are-for-seeing-light/
How I want this little guy here. To see him, know he is real, see that he is healthy, that he looks like his daddy, to hear him breath and cry. To see if he looks like his brother but at the same to get to touch him and have touched and separate my two little boys as individuals
As we get things ready it seems it will never get done. Sometimes I stop working on his room or don't work on getting ready because there's fear of coming home again without, then other times I want to rush and have it all ready. The above link was a good read this morning to remind me of the importance of not rushing (not an excuse for negligence or laziness, there's definite difference). I have always struggled with this though it has gotten better in the past few years, God has used Tony and I's relationship for many teaching moments, this being one of the big lessons. And I will gratefully admit that life is sweeter without rushing, allowing life to unfold at God's pace.
We are 36 weeks today, I am ready whenever little man is, for his arrival. All reports have been good, we have a wonderful midwife that will specially attend our birth whether she is on call or not and that eases some nerves.
