I don't feel lost but I feel like I'm in a big, never ending empty room. I'm in the void. But I've put myself here, there is no one else to blame. I know that having a relationship with anyone, but of course I'm talking about the Lord here, requires time and attention and communication. I'm not living wild but I think where I am can be even more dangerous - busy, living on my past relationship with God. And I really need him now but I FEEL like i have a long way to go to get back to where he is. I know he is right here though and all that I have to do is acknowledge. What may be a little further away is the closeness we've had in the past.and it makes me FEEL guitly to ask him for help beforeim back in a close relationship with him. But ..oh wait! Where is guilt from?! Not from God. How much more is God ready to receive me back than even my family or friends would be..and I know they quickly would open their arms to me just as the father of the prodigal son. So today I strive to give thanks in each moment and reprioritize....a big theme in our new life with a little one! I am really learning what is important and what is not so much. I think my husband knows even better and I should take heed to his example and relax like he tells me too!